‘Oh my dear western world, how my heart goes out to thee.
A world living in fear, spirits are drained, talents are corrupted, beauty is disfigured beyond recognition and love is looked down upon and mocked to have no purpose in life.
How often have we been asked the question – What is your worth?
What is your value?
How much are you worth?
We are born into a society that teaches us to go to school, learn, study, find a job to survive in life and then one day you may have enough money saved up to do what your heart actually wanted to do in the first place.
It is a society that bases our self worth and the belief of what we are meant to do to earn a right to survive on this planet and in the amount we earn for the work we do, whether we love that work or hate it.
We have so much power in us, so much spirit yearning to express itself, live itself and create itself.
Why are we holding that back?
Why are we afraid to speak our truth?
Why do we live a life in the limitations of what we fear the world around us, wants from us?
Why do we allow separation between each other? Whether is be culture, race, work hierarchies or celebrity status.
In 2010 I closed up my entire life’s work, my dreams, achievements and abilities in a defeated pile. I sat down with leftover pieces of guilt, shame, exhaustion and lots of stress and fear. I decided I was no longer going to pursue a success that was defined by the world around me and was going to remember who I really was, why I was here and what my life and existence had planned this time around.
I sat down and tried to remember why I started doing what I was doing in my life in the first place?
I once was plagued with a back pain from injuries obtained throughout a stressful, grueling and difficult career in working with horses.
My path to healing led me down numerous tracks. At first I was in complete denial and searched in whatever medical way I could to escape the pain and continue my beloved work. This did not last and after one day getting off a horse and realising I could not feel both my legs I was pushed to more action. Shortly after this surgeons were telling me I would need to change career and I could not ride again, I kept riding but I also began to search deeper. Accupunture, water physiotherapy, herbs, pressure point therapy, mental coaching and many, many anti-inflammatory tablets!
After my nieces both met Lee they formed a connection that until now, they continue to name every toy horse they have ‘Lee’ 🙂
Recently I had dinner with a wonderful group of people, one of them being a Biologist with strong views against any form of domesticated animal. His belief was simply ‘no pets’. This view hit me hard as I tried to understand where and why he had it from. He alike many other people, believe all animals should be wild and have no human interaction at all. That the world would be a better place if it was completely separated between animal and human.
On the 12th of October in Milan, Italy, a day for us all to remember for a very long time was in the making. The night before, after receiving some information as to why the majority of these men were in prison, due to my own inner fears of not being able to be present without judgment, I woke up in a panic at 4am thinking that I really should not go. I did go and I would not be who I am today if I didn’t. Here is a small expression of a day in a prison made of light and its profound healing it brought to us all.
People had been asking me for a long time before my visit ‘Why was I going to a prison?!’ For me it was very simple –
I believe we all have a responsibility in this life to help each other in whatever way we can.
I went into this place knowing nothing of who these men were, their pasts or their futures and only was told statically what most of them were in here for but I did not know individually. I had to go in with an open heart and let go of any judgments or perceptions of who I thought these men were. If you can look beyond your own ego it is easier to look beyond the ego in others and here is where we can see the truth of each others pain. I ended up spending 8 hours there with this extremely wonderful group of inmates, program leaders and their horses.
‘There is no finish line, life is the experience and fear is the force of growth. Love is waiting on the other side.’ Catherine Louise Birmingham with Landetta
What is Freedom?
The freedom to be who we are. The freedom to soar across the sky untouched and unharmed by anyone or anything. The freedom to exist as we are, the freedom to be loved and to give love. The freedom to live without judgment- from the outside and from within. The freedom to honor your truth and your life purpose. The freedom to BE YOU.
Who is truly free? Do we all exist in this life in a bubble of fear? Who really is soaring within and living the true calling of their life?
Lee coming to the car to say goodbye…
All references made to God in my writing, is in my belief a Universal energy that may be interpreted in whatever way that connects to the reader.
‘I cannot live without you’. A belief we have of love is that it is attached to a need. The need to be with someone, the need to have something and the need to be somewhere are all recognised as loving something or someone. ‘I love you so much, I need you’. But this is not love in its truest form. One cannot teach this truth for it must be experienced, we can be given directions on how to get there but this special journey must be walked by thee alone. He who stretches beyond their current belief in search of the truth about love will be touching upon the Devine; The aspect of themselves that is in alignment with the truth of everything – the truth of God.
Some may call me naïve and many have called me stubborn but I believe in the goodness of all human beings. Yes I have been hurt by many, used, lied to and hurt in many ways. But I have also been loved. I have been trusted, cared for and have received from many. Continue reading
Why do we have animals so closely interwoven into our lives?
What are we learning from them?
What are they really trying to tell us?
Some of what you read in this article may be challenging for some. To understand these questions it will help to come to take the view that our lives are a complete mirror image reflecting back to us in detail, showing us to ourselves.
To understand this we need to remember that all of our individual lives – seen from our own perspectives no matter how many people, places, things or events that they consist of, are always a reflection of us.